lolno

The best things in life are never free.  Nothing in life is free.  The greatest things in life are hard to obtain and way too easy to lose.  And when you lose, you end up losing more than you planned on risking in the first place.  What if you risk everything and what you wanted never even ended up being that great.  Just the idea of it hanging in front of your face waiting for you to actually DO something was a fleeting moment of duty that filled your heart with purpose.  I want to be happy but it seems like “the plan” for any adult is to prioritize success above happiness.  Why am I waiting for something, or someone to tell me that’s wrong?  Sometimes I wonder if that even is wrong.  Realizing you have no purpose doesn’t free you, it isolates you.  I feel like a block of ice that just broke off from a glacier and is now drifting out to sea, but having no justification for ever leaving my origins other than the reason that thats just how things happened, and melting all the while.